adding insult to injury…

5 Jul

I just found a lump on my breast. On breasts that have never seen even the slightest weirdness, not ever.

Not panicking, not yet. Just wondering what else can happen to try and make me completely insane. Although I never thought of cancer as a suicide method….

Walk in clinic tomorrow if it’s not just some weird cyst. It’s very hard, whatever it is. And it hurts.

Fuck.

22 Responses to “adding insult to injury…”

  1. March July 5, 2008 at 5:11 pm #

    it’ll hopefully be nothing to worry about.
    gosh, you really are having the week from hell…

    sending you a big hug, we’re here for you, if only to listen…

    and next week we’ll be in the same side of the world. I’ll be reading you and praying for you, even if I don’t officially comment, not sure what my internet situation will be like the first couple of weeks.

    I’m truly sending you all the good energy I can.

    It will be ok.

  2. Carin July 5, 2008 at 5:25 pm #

    Damn it, if it rains, it pours! I don’t know shit about breast cancer, but I’ve heard that if it hurts, it’s most likely not cancer. But still go to the clinic lickedy split. Hopin’ for ya.

  3. CharmingDriver July 5, 2008 at 6:02 pm #

    2nding Carin in saying that lumps associated with breast cancer aren’t typically painful but get to a Dr ASAP regardless.

  4. Carin July 5, 2008 at 6:27 pm #

    Yea! I’m not on crack! As I wrote that, I thought, “or you could be horribly wrong. Maybe you should just, in the words of Matt Foly, shut your big yapper!” But still, things that weren’t lumpy before and are lumpy now should get looked at.

  5. thordora July 5, 2008 at 6:30 pm #

    |Everything I’ve read said likely not, but get thee hence to the doctor anyway…so I will.

  6. Bon July 5, 2008 at 8:30 pm #

    i’m glad you’re going in, you.

    and my bf here just went through a whole mammogram/cyst aspiration experience here…scary and drawn-out but luckily it was just cysts, and they’re benign. and she had pain in the beginning, which apparently indicates cysts.

    keep us posted.

    and i’ve been thinking about you and about the upcoming anniversary of last summer’s misery for you, and about the struggling you’re doing again these days. i know with crises of grief and trauma it’s normal for stuff that seemed “better” to manifest again just beforehand…so i’m keeping you close, anyhoo, thinking about you. am here, if there’s anything i can offer…?

  7. Jennifer July 5, 2008 at 8:42 pm #

    Freaking lovely.

    Hey, we’re in Moncton tonight, but its now 9:30pm and a little late to do anything now. 😦

    I hope it’s nothing. Which side of Moncton do you live near? We’re staying at the Holiday Inn Express off the 450 exit. I can’t remember if we made plans. I don’t think we did. But I didn’t want you to think I’m not thinking about you! I keep looking for armpit looking things. :p

  8. misspudding July 5, 2008 at 10:22 pm #

    Ya know, I would say that PMS and hormonal type crap probably have a lot to do with both of your “issues” at the moment. I don’t like just lumping everything into that category, but…

    When I was younger and didn’t have an IUD that released progestin, I would get fibrocystic breasts that hurt like hell, along with other things that hurt like hell, once a month. Things are much better these days.

    I hope all is well.

  9. flutter July 6, 2008 at 12:39 am #

    I’ll be thinking of you, let’s just think good thoughts and will the universe that this is nothing to worry about

  10. Marcy July 6, 2008 at 9:37 am #

    May it be benign.

    The other thing I thought of is that sometimes I crash precisely because things are going well and it gets my anxieties going, as in, “it can’t last, it can’t last, it can’t be for real, what’s going to happen next,” etc.

  11. thordora July 6, 2008 at 12:03 pm #

    Just back-the lump is likely a cyst. She advised there were other cysts there (not that I’ve noticed, but I believe her) but if it doesn’t go away, to come back.

    The weird ass red thing I didn’t talk about is, as I suspected, cellulitis. Antibiotics for that.

    So sigh of relief, assuming the lump does indeed go away.

  12. karrie July 6, 2008 at 4:09 pm #

    A close friend here just went through a similar scare. I know it is small comfort, but you’re probably OK. Might want to ask for a sono though to be sure.

  13. March July 6, 2008 at 6:18 pm #

    sighing in relief over here too, hopefully it’ll go away soon and you won’t have to worry about it anymore…

  14. sweetsalty kate July 6, 2008 at 11:54 pm #

    okay, a weird comment, but here goes anyway:

    YAY CYSTS!!!!!!!

  15. Carin July 7, 2008 at 12:10 am #

    Yea! Woo! It’s just a cyst! *breathes sigh of relief*

  16. Jen July 7, 2008 at 11:26 am #

    late to the party but what a relief!

  17. thordora July 7, 2008 at 11:34 am #

    yes. The itching from the cellulitis however? SUCKS. But apparently this can sometimes turn into flesh eating disease. Who knew?

  18. daisybones July 7, 2008 at 11:48 am #

    Whew! Was planning on commenting to beg for update, but no need. Glad to hear:)

  19. Hannah July 7, 2008 at 4:58 pm #

    I’ve never been so happy for someone to have cysts in all my life.

    The countdown is on ’till I can see you… I’m so excited.

  20. Gwen July 8, 2008 at 11:54 am #

    so glad to hear it’s probably cysts. You had me worried!

  21. cori July 8, 2008 at 4:47 pm #

    What a relief!!!

  22. Erin July 9, 2008 at 7:12 am #

    Best thoughts coming to you. Sorry for your boobies. (Such a funny word – boobies.) Here’s hoping it’s just something to snort over.

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