“how to die quickly”

22 Jan

I don’t honestly know what to do with this one.

I get searches for this phrase a few times a week, and generally, I ignore it, pretend it isn’t there. It bothers me. The image of some poor soul browsing the internet, looking for the fastest way to off themselves….it gets to me, eats at me, makes me feel like Ophelia staring into the waters, searching for an answer that just won’t come.

I don’t have the answer. I don’t know how to die quickly. If I did, I imagine I wouldn’t be here writing this. I would have taken that road long ago.

What is it that’s so bad? Your home, your family? Is your life not what you thought it would be? Do you want children? Do you want to be rid of children? Are you in love? Do you wish you could be in love?

Are you lonely? Are you hurting?

I’ve been there. I’ve been in all those horrible fucking places where it hurts to breathe and you just want to go to sleep and not wake up. You want to die, and not have any responsibility for it. You want to let go, release your fingers from the tethers of here and now and float into neverneverland, be a boy forever.

It hurts to even think about being happy where you are. It aches-you pound with a fierce ache that you can’t define or isolate, but it eats you alive. You stare wildly at everything and nothing. The world has narrowed to you, and the pain you feel.

I felt this the day I went into the hospital, the day I finally saw through the hurt and pain and blood filled vision and realized I didn’t want to die. I just didn’t want to hurt so fucking much anymore. I wanted to feel alive, instead of hollow.

There is no quick way to die, or to live. But there are choices.

204 Responses to ““how to die quickly””

  1. Nikita January 22, 2008 at 11:23 pm #

    I’m glad you decided to post on that search item. It is an unspeakable horror when things like this come from your own brain. Hopefully your post will help them understand that they are not alone in their suffering and that there is help out there if they want it.

    • ruchir August 23, 2010 at 11:50 am #

      can u please tell how a i can kill myself is there any medicine which can take life easily without any pain.

      • love March 5, 2011 at 9:58 am #

        i also want to die pls tell me the quickest way of dying widout any pain… i dnt wnt to live more..

        • eliza April 6, 2013 at 1:18 am #

          love u wil die

      • sasha July 14, 2011 at 4:22 pm #

        smoke loads of heroin u will drift into a sleep maybe never wake up hopefully nice and peaceful. lock the door to otherwise someone mite find u. if u do wake up just take more and more if u can get methadone thats better just drink lots of it and that will kill u but u just drift off to sleep that is my plan anyway. i hate PEOPLE humans are disgusting creatures and the pain i have suffered is to unbearable for me to speak about i will never recover from wat has happend in y life and i am only 23 . i have no one in this world that i even remotely like let alone love. fuck help y shud pay anyone to listen to my problems and try n make sense of them for me i have made my decision and in 3 days i will be no more and i am not scared one bit . i am not as strong as other people my strength has been worn down to thread

        • Head Turner October 9, 2012 at 6:07 pm #

          i am impressed πŸ™‚ you are exceptionally retarded and with some luck he can maybe become an addict and feel even better , perhaps u should put some grenades around the room with a sprinkling of petrol to just simmer everything nicely while you get your dad to help push a compressor up your ass as u sleep .Ya think u would either tell him how or to stfu rather then suggest something that could make his life even more unbearable . Anyways please post on here how many bags u had to take before u were fully dead thank you

      • monro February 11, 2012 at 10:20 pm #

        join the army you’ll find a way or you’ll find a purpose

      • Tapati Sanyal December 9, 2012 at 11:30 am #

        Can u plz tell me how to die so that noone doubt it as suicide.

    • suisidel February 8, 2011 at 10:48 pm #

      you dont undersand i had a family that raped and beat me and when i went into care i honestly started to belive i could maybe forget about things and i did for a while met and arried a guy even had four of the most butiful kids u could ever meet but nothing changes i lost them when i went into hospital for the stab wounds he gave me as well as all the beatings along the way thought i would never trust anyone again but i did and again anouther looser he dosent hit me or anything like that just lies cheat on a major level and steals so befor you tell anyone its not worth doing it understand them first i only had four butiful kids wourth living for and that was taking from me because of violince so come on then what exactly do i have to live for

      • monro February 11, 2012 at 9:57 pm #

        the kids fight for them they need you trust me i still look for my mother one day i’ll find her i know she was in a bad relationship but she’s still my mum. keep hope for ya kids they will find you as i will find my mum

      • priya21289 February 8, 2013 at 1:27 pm #

        sounds like you been through hell…if i can find enough heroin…i;ll share it with you

      • priya21289 February 8, 2013 at 1:30 pm #

        sounds like you’ve been through hell…if i can find enough heroin…i;ll share it with you

    • respectmywords March 26, 2014 at 5:17 pm #

      I hope u know u r selfish and stupid as fuck u need to learn to live if Ur abused hit them back don’t be a hitch fight back Ur life is for u to carve not to throw away I’m not talkin to u but to everyone who is asking how to kill yourself I hope u aren’t pussies and u will say I don’t know well I don’t but u need to stand up and fight if you don’t have a place make your place u think they don’t care but as soon as Ur gone they will cry and weep and ask why u need to stay here until u die in your sleep at 80 years old

  2. bromac January 23, 2008 at 10:43 am #

    I wish them peace. Just thinking of the pain associated with this phrase makes my stomach recoil from searing memories.

  3. Julie Pippert January 23, 2008 at 1:29 pm #

    From your lips—honest and courageous—to their ears. And from me? Hope.

  4. cat January 24, 2008 at 2:31 pm #

    How true… every way to die is slow, even the quick ones. It’s good some people will click on this when they search for that. I’ve felt exactly like you write and it’s true, the world does narrow to just you at those moments. It’s terrifying and consuming. There are choices though and there’s hope.

  5. mee February 9, 2008 at 4:47 pm #

    OMG i was like ye waaa :S when i came on this NO JOKE like.
    aaand that ddint excatly help yeeeeno cus I STILL WANNA DIE πŸ˜€

  6. ruth February 18, 2008 at 6:36 pm #

    there are no answers at times right now i feel numb and rejected lonely and allsorts. life is empty for me at this present time .taken tablets earlier that was a joke im even useless at that what a failure i am.

    • lonely March 1, 2009 at 5:14 pm #

      Mine didn’t work either. Shit when you wake up alive.

      • monro February 11, 2012 at 10:07 pm #

        fight it all hard and fast you can do anything f**k everyone smile and get on with it that upsets everyone most still here still fighting and will win while everyone else makes do. who lives the most the ones that do or the ones that think about it

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 2:04 pm #

      I have failed at committing suicide 6 times and I’m 16. My family hate me and uses me every chance they get, I mean nothing to them. My school is shit therefore I have no future. As someone already mentioned: I don’t like anyone, nevertheless LOVE.. HAHAA!! Love is a joke, so is “family” and so is life! That’s why I have set out to end mine. My new year’s resolution is to find an effective way of killing myself and successfully applying it. I don’t know what this hope shit is all about, hope is an emotion and the only emotion I’m feeling is loneliness. That’s enough to kill me, slowly. I mean, I have tried hanging myself, suffocating myself, overdosing on pills of all sorts and jumping off of a 4-story building and poisoning myself by eating deadly plants; none of which have worked. However, there is hope (I guess xD)! I read online that if you mix bleach with vinegar (bass and acid, which neutralise eachother) the reaction gives out chlorine: a poisonous gas. I have yet to try this, but if you are also going to give it a go make sure that no one is around or at least that no one can get to you in time to save you, and gas yourself with the shit! I was considering the heroin or whatever overdose but heroin and cocaine etc. are really expensive and I don’t own any money, or anything for that matter.. So, wish me good luck people, gonna bow out in style! πŸ™‚

      • monro February 11, 2012 at 10:15 pm #

        how is that style f**K everyone best thing to do is work hard and make something of ya sen then f**k everyone off. or join the army help the boys there is always that famiy who will love and back you up nothing comes close to that

      • Tapati Sanyal December 9, 2012 at 11:34 am #

        Can u tell me how to die surely so that no one can doubt it as suicide.?plz help.., death only give me peace from my problems….i am a in last stage of depression

  7. thordora February 18, 2008 at 7:00 pm #

    oh ruth….call someone, anyone. Reach out.

    The sun will be brighter for you tomorrow.

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 6:29 pm #

      the sun will come out for you tomorrow? things will get better? no they won’t!! they never do.. the sun shines to show you what you lack. life is nothing but pain, nothing but endless opportunities to fail.. and yeah, when you take those three bottles of pills and you wake up alive.. again… or when the gusher of blood starts to clot and won’t start up again.. dammit.. why am I still here? what if I shoot myself in the head and just end up an invalid, unable to even attempt freedom? and I reitterate.. dammit

      • blank December 1, 2010 at 8:15 am #

        when things start closing in on u and u dont get any solution and its like every way of getting out has been blocked and u soffocate from inside u feel like killeng urself and just leaving every question that is going to come unanswered and just go away from the pain as they say that living life after death is easier than living it after birth… and all this crap about inner enlightenment sounds all the more pathetic! why??? why cant anybody understand my nature? why is it that i speak anything and people think i am using them? it’s over for me for sure as i cant see my parents dying for my sake… goodbye world!

  8. caro March 21, 2008 at 10:48 am #

    But what if you just wanna die…but u cant actually do it… and u try 2 b happy or seek help..but u just cant help the fact that u r addicted 2 destroying yourself.. What happens when drugs have power over you..and u cant quit..

  9. thordora March 21, 2008 at 10:53 am #

    then a day will come when you can do it, for you, or you can change, for you.

    We do so many things for other people-living is something we have to want to do for ourselves, clean or otherwise.

  10. rottenlemonhead March 22, 2008 at 5:30 pm #

    I just can’t seem to remember a day when every waking moment wasn’t fixated on stopping the pain of living…how is it that the people you hold close always seem to know how to kill your spirit? I want off this planet!!

    • sasha July 14, 2011 at 4:25 pm #

      your exactely rite its always the people closest to u that bring out the worst in u and tear your heart out etc i am crying whilst writing this i hate the fact i was ever born.

      • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 2:12 pm #

        Me too, crying my eyes out in pain.. And every time I tell anyone of my unfortunate life, they call me selfish. How is me wanting to die selfish when I’m not wanted, I seem to be the cause of everyone’s problems so I figured that if I die everyone will be happy. How is that selfish?! They always say, “Be thankful that your parents gave you life” but that’s a load of shit, I hate my parents for ever forcing into this world of never-ending pain and suffering!! I seem to wish that we had a choice at birth whether we should live or not..

        • Antonia October 25, 2012 at 3:06 pm #

          i think that if i die everyone will be happy but i am told lods to go die in a hole
          i am only 13 tho wat should i do?

    • kellyr17 October 11, 2012 at 7:40 pm #

      Couldn’t have said it better!! They will never understand unless they were in our shoes!!!

  11. sorrow and sadness April 5, 2008 at 6:51 pm #

    it happens every year when the spring comes up and the same thing happen to me . it hurts my feeling so badly and then go away during fall and winter. I don’t know what to do , dont even know how to control myself. Why life is so hard for me. Sometime i think of death but i still have my family. They are always with me . That keeps me alive……..im so exhauted

  12. sorrow and sadness April 5, 2008 at 7:04 pm #

    i dont wanna lose my love but im about to lose everything. i know it would happen so soon , and im scared dont know when it comes destroying my life or creating a new person. im curious. Fuck my life

  13. stuff April 7, 2008 at 2:38 pm #

    no idea but if I could I would!

    tried talking tried not doing anthing mainly drink but no hugs

    I give up !!
    ps prefer know how to do it

  14. betterOffDead April 17, 2008 at 10:48 pm #

    I understand everything you write. And I still want to die. And quickly if possible. I botched suicide once but will not fail next time. Its just hard thinking what my kids will think. But they’ll be better off without me fucking up there lives.

  15. ready April 19, 2008 at 12:36 am #

    maybe if people didn’t treat people with depression as a charity case then so many people wouldn’t kill themselves, i think if someone wants to end their life they should have that right to do it, but they have to be sober and it has to be well thought through, i don’t do drugs or drink and i want to die, i have been depressed since i could remember everyday i experience an overwhelming sadness, i’ve tried therapy and medication none of it worked, i am a good person but i am ready to go now and i’m okay with it, why do people feel sorry for people like me? it’s like i’m on life support my whole life and they just won’t let me go peacefully.

  16. anonymous April 19, 2008 at 8:53 am #

    I agree with ready.

  17. ready April 19, 2008 at 4:13 pm #

    to BETTER OFF DEAD: if you have kids you cannot kill yourself, you brought life into this world you have the responsibility to be there for your kids, in your case you have something to fight for, imagine how your kids will feel if they lost their parent, they will be forever scarred, don’t do that to your kids

  18. Shane May 8, 2008 at 12:35 pm #

    Interesting analysis. I have been in cronic pain from a lower back injury for about two years. Pain management has helped, but I am never completely pain free. I took life for granted and never had any idea how bad a person could feel everyday when they constantly hurt. I hate hurting and being in pain no matter what I do. I love life though and think about all the positive things in life. My partner, my kids, simple things that make me smile. I don’t know about anybody else that reads this post, but as for me… I will not go quietly into the night, I will stay and fight!

    • teltri July 28, 2012 at 5:23 pm #

      I have read your post. Nicely said.

  19. ready May 14, 2008 at 6:31 pm #

    ok shane back pain is not the same as mental pain so spare us your pathetic little story, you can still be mentally sane and have back pain so what you wrote is totally irrelavent to this poste

    • lonely March 1, 2009 at 5:35 pm #

      READY, you are wrong. My daughter lives in chronic pain which has caused her personality disorder. When you’ve been with your kid who’s in a hospital bed on about ten occasions after trying to take her life cos she can’t take the pain anymore then you might understand. I tried to kill myself last week cos i’ve had enough now. Was fucked off when I woke up

  20. thordora May 14, 2008 at 7:18 pm #

    I call foul ready. Chronic pain can lead to some mental issues, and can lead to suicide as well.

    Pain is pain, regardless of source.

    • lonely March 1, 2009 at 5:36 pm #

      Thankyou for explaining that one. I know how it is cos my girl’s mental proplems started with chronic pain.

  21. ready May 20, 2008 at 11:28 pm #

    thordora – yes it’s pain but a different kind of pain

  22. Jonathan June 9, 2008 at 12:40 pm #

    Hheheehhe, i came here from this phrase but i dont necessarely want to die quickly.

    some times i like to think that the search box is a dump to much of imediate fellings, some times i laught at it, sometime i try to kick someone with it, soemtime i express my own frustration – like now i’m in trouble solving some work problems and i’m dumping all the frustration. maybe its weird, but i think it far better then punching my monitor, or my dog latter.

  23. anonymous June 19, 2008 at 7:26 am #

    Sometimes it’s better to let go, and do it.

  24. Frank July 24, 2008 at 11:03 pm #

    Anonymous & any of you thinking of ending it all – please reconsider!!!

    I was there. I am 36 years old now and so grateful that I chose not to take my own life before I had a chance to live. It was worse than you can imagine. Broke, alone, confused, far from home, hanging out out of a window on my 19th birthday with what I thought was nothing to live for. Something changed my mind. I don’t know what. But since then, I have seen the world. Toured the world, I’ve lived, really really lived. Just don’t go without making a difference, have a look around before checking out. Don’t go before you have had a chance to have a look at the world – it really is quite amazing!!!! iIf afterwards you still think it’s all crap go ahead, but I figure you’ll be like me. Thankful you didn’t. Someone who was there once and really understands.

  25. Anon August 1, 2008 at 7:32 am #

    No Frank sometimes when all is lost…………..

    • blank December 1, 2010 at 8:23 am #

      guess u r right frank.. i really do wanna make a difference before i go but someone has asked me to prove my love for them by cutting my wrist and i am sure as hell going to do that but i dont wanna hurt others who love me by letting them know it was planned and intentional.. i just want to do it so descreetly that they think it was an accident.. as i just won’t be able to answer them if i were alve… i am just doing it to prove my innocence… but the question remains-HOW??? please understand my problem someone and help me

    • cuty October 22, 2011 at 10:49 am #

      yes when u have enough of fighti g with every one and every one in ur life for your survival,then its all over.i am 30 yrs and m doing a good job,m married no kids.i do my job forcefully coz my husband has no income now,i am not well cant take the strain of office for 12 hrs ,still i do it,i even complete all the house hold chores.but still my husband says that u r the worst lady in the world,fuck u and all.he is busy in his own social life in samaj seba and friends.i never get a moment when he holds me and talks to me or when i have somebody to support to me or listen to me.the best part is this is a love marraige.i just spoiled my life and i cant take it anymore.iwanna ie.just need to know where to get heroine or potassium cyanide.

      • Jason October 31, 2011 at 10:49 am #

        I would love to talk to you more cuty

        Plz email me cuty thanks

  26. me September 4, 2008 at 11:54 pm #

    Im just done.
    The room eats me with the inmensity of the walls..
    Im just wishing that something like a big sound or light surround my body.
    I dont want to hope anymore
    I dont want to see anymore
    I dont want to anymore

    • Karchev October 1, 2009 at 5:56 am #

      Your prose is bad and you should feel bad.

      • kaila December 29, 2009 at 6:38 pm #

        no need to be a jerk. is there not enough pain here as it is?

    • yang December 9, 2011 at 8:13 am #

      ME too feeling the same,,,,, I just want to die because nothing is happening as i wish……..I tried a lot,im vexed……..Atlast im giving up…….My parents are not understanig my feelings….Then who else can helpme out so i want to give up

  27. jamie September 7, 2008 at 11:20 pm #

    I tried to do it but failed. I’m a failure at life. July 25th I took my baby to the er bc she fell off the bed and her elbow swelled up. The fucking dfcs took her away saying I abused her when I would die before I even thought to. Now my ex wants custody and he and his mom are violent and I’m gonna lose my daughter. I overdosed on pain pills that were for my back and I wish I died.I need help but don’t know how to get it.

    • teltri July 28, 2012 at 5:31 pm #

      People with faith can give it to you, like Christians.

  28. allie September 7, 2008 at 11:22 pm #

    I tried to do it but failed. I’m a failure at life. July 25th I took my baby to the er bc she fell off the bed and her elbow swelled up. The fucking dfcs took her away saying I abused her when I would die before I even thought to. Now my ex wants custody and he and his mom are violent and I’m gonna lose my daughter. I overdosed on pain pills that were for my back and I wish I died.I need help but don’t know how to get it.

  29. Yana November 11, 2008 at 7:21 pm #

    I agree 100% with ready. I too have lived with depression since I was about 12. I’m on meds, and I’ve done therapy 2-3 times in my life, but things never stay good for long. I always end up back in this place, feeling like I want to die. I can’t bring myself to commit suicide because it would affect the payout on the insurance policy my mom has on me. And I think it would embarass her. I wouldn’t want my suicide to turn my mother into the center of the gossip mill at church. So I keep hoping that God will just take me in my sleep, or let me contract an untreatable flu or pneumonia. I know that God loves me, but I don’t know why he won’t just kill me already. Seriously. I can’t figure out why I’m still alive. I don’t want to be. I’d gladly give my life to someone else who really wants to be alive and who doesn’t want to die. Whatever purpose I have doesn’t matter because I’m between jobs, I’m worried about money and most of all I know that even if my current situation gets better that sooner or much much sooner, it will get worse again. My happiness and prosperity never lasts, and everything is always a cycle–a bad cycle that seems to be down more than up.
    So there’s no point in me even trying to be happy. Every morning that I wake up, a part of me feels defeated and like I failed because I woke up. Why is it harder to die than it is to be born? People have unplanned pregnancies by the thousands, yet those of us who want to leave find it difficult.

    Maybe I won’t wake up tomorrow. That’s okay with me.

    Of course I already know that with my luck and karma that the absolute happiest and best day of my life will probably be the day that I finally die. Because this universe is so fucked up that it won’t let me die when I’m down. It’s going to wait until I’m at the absolute top to finally cut my silver cord.

    Do you think that if I focus on death as I fall asleep that it will finally come?

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 6:43 pm #

      focus on death as you fall asleep.. if only that would work. I’d have been dead by the age of 5

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 2:36 pm #

      Oh you don’t know how many nights on end I have prayed to God to take me away or end my suffering, or at least give me a solution on how to end my own suffering and eventually I realised that God is only there when we don’t need him and disappears when we do. That’s that the Bible says: “God will only help those who help themselves”.. So what do you do if you can’t help yourself.. NOTHING. You suffer in silence and pretend nothing’s wrong. That’s when I realised God doesn’t exist if he doesn’t look after his own kind, who could possibly be so cruel as to give you life and fuck it up for you as well, and after, just let you suffer with nothing and no one. Well, my friend, I’m sorry to let you down but God is a state of mind: if you believe you can do it, you can, however if you lose hope then “God” is gone. It’s all about psychology: the Bible, God, everything.. Today’s world is just made to set us up for the biggest fall there is!

  30. j November 28, 2008 at 2:15 am #

    I will continue my search 2 find out how 2 die quickly.
    last time I spoke 2 sum 1 who wasn’t begging 4 me 2 give them my money was when I went 2 purchase summat in a shop.
    ho, wait that’s almost the same thing isn’t it??
    I’m thousands in debt & the only time any 1 calls on me it’s 2 tell me how poor they R & how they can’t afford 2 put food on the table 4 thier kids or they’ve no money 4 electric/gas…
    I know full well they R all LIER’s & they’ve more money than me…
    but I give them what ever they ask 4 cozI’m 2 scared not 2.
    I’m scared of most people… but I don’t let them know it…
    I SMILE at every 1…
    coz I’m scared of them…
    I joke & laff wi them…
    & never C any nice people again…
    It’s the nasty 1’s …
    all those people who “want” everything…
    them horrid people who hit U
    I know they’ll hit me if I dont give them everything they ask me 4…
    in the past 12 months my terror has forced me into paying 4 computers, borrowing thousands and even purchasing a car 4 my care giver….

    just tell me how to die coz I’m so sick of being so frightened of trying to work out how 2 live

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 6:47 pm #

      J – if you’re not afraid to die, why do you fear pain?
      if you can face death, then fear nothing

  31. keely December 18, 2008 at 7:26 pm #

    Im 12 and I want to die. This world is useless and theres no point crying each day..having pain and depression. To me life is useless because at the end all the pain, crying and work is useless.

    • Bec June 2, 2012 at 10:05 pm #

      I am 13, I know exactly how you feel. I used to wonder about killing myself. But there is always, always hope, always something to live for. Don’t give up, never give up. Life is to short to make any shorter. We are young, we have so much ahead of us. Never throw it away.

  32. thordora December 18, 2008 at 7:31 pm #

    Keely, please email me.

    • lonely March 1, 2009 at 5:44 pm #

      Thordora, whats your email?

  33. ahnaf nehal December 30, 2008 at 4:54 am #

    i will die as soon as possible …………………. but how i don’t know………..!!!

  34. Jeff January 3, 2009 at 4:42 pm #

    Somw want to die from depresion, and some from the pain of a horrible, unurable, diesase. We should not mix these up- We weill all die eventully- but we musy give people some choice as to how long thjey will let thier family suffrerr

    So its a serious question and deservices a genuine answer

  35. daniel January 11, 2009 at 4:12 pm #

    im from Brasil, sorry my badly english and my mystakes..

    Tell me one reason to continue alive, if every breathe cause pain, every time you look to your family (cousins, aunties, brothers, parents etc) they dont realize you are not happy, and they are givin` a shit about your pain. My cousin commited suicide in 2006, and nobody remember a something like that!!! no one asked for a “oration” to him, nothing…so, where I want to go, I want a different place of Earth Planet, far far away of human being shit, Im done of wars, hipocrits, the salty of my tears, my dry throat swallowin` more pain to inside, pain pain pain.

    why stand alive in those conditions? Why so big fuckin Tabu when people dont feel acceptable in society, dont accept well the wounds of the world…

    yes, I said with my big fuckin mouth: between living here, in this painshit, and living the beyond, I stay with Beyond, I`ll take the risk.

    sorry be so pessimist, but that what I`m think about this world..

    try to be happy! maybe you can do it..

  36. jim jam January 27, 2009 at 4:48 pm #

    i’ve been feeling this way for a long time now it’s not that i cant be happy in side it feels so dol i cant smile i cant talk to anyone

  37. ze terminator March 1, 2009 at 4:37 pm #

    hi! i would recommend jumping from a very high building. Maybe after railing against the society or something. Like the empire state buildin for exemple. It has been field tested.

    Another thing to do, would be to use your life savings(or to get into debts) buying @rms and then going on a rampage on a local college or your office. Then die under withering police fire.

  38. Teresa March 13, 2009 at 7:46 pm #

    Stuff, just know that I am sending you a great big motherly hug. Just reach out and get it.
    Love to all and just know that God knows your pain. This life is a gift, no matter if it does suck. We are only here for a while then when we die, maybe we can be a part of a great supernova! Life is hard and when you hurt mentally or fisically it is even harder, especially when you don’t have anywhere to turn. Family and friends get tired of hearing you complain, so you try not to. Dr.s want to jump to conclusions and do not listen so we suffer even more. Hum, we pay them for a service? Anyway, hang in there everybody, just know that you are not alone no matter how lonely you feel. God is real and sees your every move. I hope that everyone finds peace in their souls without dying. I wish I had answers to make everyone feel better. Peace & Love, T

    • keenan November 28, 2011 at 2:54 pm #

      god is just a deserter and everytime i cried out for help from him things only got worse he could never know how much i suffered he never even tried to help NOT ONCE.

  39. anna May 11, 2009 at 10:17 am #

    Look, its easy for you happy people to say there are other ways, god loves you, talk to family friends or someone “who can help”.
    Good for you! thats great. what about those people whose families dont give a crap. Even if you get help you have to pay for it (wow, so convenient, loving and special! p.s. note the sarcasm). Truth is; no one gives a shit! Its easy to say all those things but at the end of the day it doesnt matter!
    Only you know yourself, and when its over its over.
    All this advice…dont you think people have tried that? For those who have tried it more than once it does not get any better…thats why you find yourself trying again.
    Ive been through the therapy, the medication, the ridicule, the fake love or caring, the obvious resentment of “loved ones”.
    Life moves on at the end of the day. You end up being forgotten which is what i want.
    A sense of peace from this god forsaken society that we find ourselves in. I only feel bad because i wasted my parents time and money (im a student) that i waste even more with every breath i take and every meal i eat. Including rent, utilities, e.t.c.(lol)
    All i know is that im going to keep trying until i succeed. Ive spent the last hour looking for the best ways to die–I know that when i find it, ill use it. I know that i dont want anyone to clean up a mess–i just want to disappear!
    You would think that google had better search results!(Lighten up, its a joke!)
    But the joke lies in the ignorance. The ignorance of those who never will understand being “alone”….no purpose…no substance…no benefit…whatever. Its a waste of time and resources that others find useful…that i had no chance to decide whether i wanted life or not.
    I speak for myself…this is my choice-my chance to get a one way ticket out of here. I dont know where I’ll go, but its hella more appealling than staying here.
    last words.x Anna

    • Abby September 3, 2011 at 6:21 pm #

      I feel the same way

  40. mohamed talibi May 15, 2009 at 10:09 pm #

    life is but a walking shadow but we should not give up without a fight. death will be so happy if takes control over us and wins. believe to die is not going to end anything rather it is the start of the real pain and suffering/ the one who think about putting an end to his life is a looser not because he cannot face problems but bacause he cannot be the master of his soul. be happy do not worry.

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 2:50 pm #

      Easy for you to say. It’s a bit different when you have no real family, no friends, no education, no job, no money, no possessions, no chance of a break through, no hope… No life. Yeah, suicide is the “easy way out” but fuck living on this planet for another 60 years feeling like this.. I don’t even know what would happen! I’d probably die of loneliness and alienation.

  41. sweet June 12, 2009 at 4:02 am #

    i dont want to live anymore suggest me some solution to die so that nobody can have blame

  42. cantdealwiththepain June 14, 2009 at 8:44 pm #

    it just won’t go away. I fight it constantly. I have children. No one understands. I can never live. I am trapped in bars of pain and hopelessness.

  43. kr June 24, 2009 at 11:56 pm #

    life… what a mother fucker.. pardon my language… my father passed away one year ago today from a massive heart attack… 6 days before my wedding… for all those who want to kill themselves.. you have no idea the pain the devastation you will cause those you leave… my father had no choice, I had no choice in him leaving … I COULDNT imagine if the person who left me had a choice and didnt choose to stay with those who love them…

    trust me i am no stranger to wanting to die and wanting to not feel any pain.. or wanting to just be DONE with everything.. but anytime I feel that way I think of those I leave behind…

    I looked up this link to see what the easiest way to die would be… for myself… but then I think of those who love me and how they would be hurt… and i stop.. dont get me wrong i might not have those thoughts stop me someday… but today they do.. so i ask you to think of others before yourself… just for today.. just this time… may God help us through the other times…

    • deathbed July 11, 2009 at 9:34 pm #

      who ever needs a death……ill get it…….just dont think do it………its ur lyf…so let the death b urs

      • Blank page January 4, 2010 at 7:07 am #

        I need to die, not want, NEED!

        I wont bother explaining anymore about my life i just need methods or ways i can die. If you can tell me easy ways to die (I dont care how painfull) i would be very happy.

        I`ve already tried:
        Drug overdose
        Slitting neck and veins.

        Please reply soon.

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 2:56 pm #

      Problem: There is no one that I am leaving behind, everyone that I know WANTS me dead. And why should I care if they don’t even bother to ask if I’m OK, if my life is good.. You know?!

  44. Vic July 6, 2009 at 5:52 am #

    i guess you dont necessarily have to be in pain or to be depressed to want to end your life. I for one just find life so very useless. no matter how you live your life, the culmination of all your efforts is in mediocrity. yes, mediocrity. at least death is oblivion. at best of course it is redemption.

    sadly, i botched an attempt on my life. and to this day i regret it.

  45. deathbed July 11, 2009 at 9:35 pm #

    dont think just do it ……….its an honour grab it

  46. karen August 11, 2009 at 5:01 pm #

    I remember from as young as at least 5 my mother telling me, that she had her boys and what would she need me for. My father died when i was 18 and from then on, my mother decided it was my chore to sort out her problems and that of my brothers. All my life she has told me i was useless and not worthy of anything, but all of a sudden i had to be the head of the family. My elder brother mocked me at how stupid i was, and i kept my younger brother in absolutely everything from being 11 from my dad died until he was 25. When i decided enough was enough, my mother kept calling work, even though i told her i would get into trouble if she kept persisting. Needless to say, i’ve lost my job. My son has moved out and blames me for not giving him enough in his life, and i threw my daughter out three years ago because she said i was a shit mother and said it was my fault that her father ran off with another woman because i didn’t give him enough. If she only knew what i went through, the would only think i’d made it all up. Death would be a release

  47. IWANNAHUMPALOT August 17, 2009 at 2:37 pm #

    One day life is great the next day it sux. Cant take this roaler coaster ride no more. I need to die, so i can return to dust. Maybe later i will become a fish or a plant or maybe a bird. Only then will i be happy. We humans, think we got it so great. We are the biggest pricks on the planet. !!!

    • Karchev October 1, 2009 at 5:57 am #

      When you die, you’re dead. No becoming anything else. That’s it. So if you’re so insistent on killing yourself, hurry up and do it and quit bothering us.

      • kaila December 29, 2009 at 7:02 pm #

        why is it necessary for you to be such a jerk? ‘quit bothering us?’ ‘us’ who? if you are one of ‘us’ and you really feel the way you speak, why are you still here?
        btw.. death is not the end.. if it were, that would defy all natural laws.. intelligence is energy, which cannot be destroyed.. but unlike other forms of energy, it remains intact once we leave.. I know, I’ve left. We continue. I know.

  48. missmanson October 2, 2009 at 9:18 pm #

    I cannot begin to describe how deflating it was to find this as a result from a google search. I knew there would be no instant way of finding out the quickest death but i hoped to find something. The struggle is too much now. Memories won’t go away, the good ones won’t stay. Everything is so pointless and so am i. I am not like everyone else in that i can’t seem to be completely at ease in any circumstance. Completely at my wits end 99% of the day and the day i’m going to snap is coming soon. 4 botched attempted on my life in the last 4-5mths, one nearly ended up with me having a liver transplant. Why couldn’t i have just been left to die? It could all be over now. It’s harder to actively pursure the dream of death when your loved ones make you feel so guilty for even thinking about it. Selfish they say i am, but isn’t it more selfish for them to expect me to live when i truly TRULY don’t want to?! I am the least important surely? Leave me go with as little quilt as possible. I want my parents to continue with their lives and simply remember that this is what i wanted, i am at peace. There is no other way but death. “Exit bag”, here i come!

  49. dan October 9, 2009 at 5:08 am #

    you are just looking for money mr. the only hope if you have no money is death and if you dont die some one must die.

  50. Idon'twant2say November 2, 2009 at 5:08 am #

    hey i’m 15 and so far having the shittest life a teen could have this is all true but sorry to sya it havent help well maybe a little but yeah…. i dont know what to do anymore! i feel like a zombie/ghost or something that just stand around and no one takes notice of me….and everytime i go to do somthing every thing just turns out twice as bad if your lucky but sometimes is ends up 20times worst fuck! i hate myself i just want to go hang my self or something…. i dont know everyone at my school wants me dead i mean like why not isnt there a saying that goes “you cant beat ’em join ’em” so yeah i could just do that it be nice not no more shit and bullshit no more school no more givin my mum shit and i guest my lil bro could find a better roll model,,, my life is nothings but the same shit but different day…. i cant take it anymore Agrh! i sick of it… i wonder sometimes what if i die would it be better than life? would it be less pain i think yes! :] it would be!

    but anyway thats all i wanted to say…

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 7:08 pm #

      2 Idontwant2say

      you’re young enough to change things.
      change before it’s too late
      and consider alternative education, virtual ed, home school, GED. you’re right, high school is hell

  51. ladylorac November 6, 2009 at 12:07 am #

    I feel so empty, so alone. When I read those self help articles that tell me to buck up, think positive, and be happy, I want to hurl. I really want to die. Nothing I do ever seems to turn out positive.No matter how I try or how hard I work something comes up and smacks me in the head.

    When I think, “WOW,” life is pretty good and I feel a little bit happy, it is the kiss of death. Last Christmas, I was so happy, so content. January was the month from hell. My husband got terminated from his job for supposedly looking at inappropriate websites. He swears he never did and they found nothing on his computer but because someone reported seeing him watching dancing cats or a cartoon with a supposed pole dancer, he got terminated.

    Now I just want to die because I live somewhere I hate. I’m having health problems but I can’t go to the doctor. The dog is sick, my husband is depressed, my sons are trying to keep things together, and I can barely get out of bed.

    I JUST WANT TO DIE. I have an alphabet way to kill myself:
    cord around my neck

    I just wish I was brave enough to pick one and do it. The world would be a better place without me. NO DOUBT 😦

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 7:12 pm #

      you have sons who love you enough to try to keep things together for you? that’s reason enough to go on.
      be strong for them.
      my son wouldnt give a damn if I fell over dead in front of him. he was my life, the first thing I had to live for and now he’s going to be the death of me.. he’s draining the life from me

  52. chitti November 8, 2009 at 3:11 am #

    hi i want to die, i dont want to live anymore i fed up off my studies i lost interest. am in deep depression i tried to die but in vein am getting mad what to do tell me any remedy plsssssssssssss

  53. meher November 8, 2009 at 3:13 am #

    i want to die

  54. Liz November 8, 2009 at 11:20 am #

    Hello everyone- Your posts are so sad and I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. I can relate because I felt pretty low myself several years ago for a few years. Life still has its challenges and ups and downs but it has gotten so much better because I now feed mind, body, AND SPIRIT . Please please please feed your souls and awaken to your journeys on the spiritual path. There are so many amazing books that can help you to realize or at least ponder the possibility that this physical reality is not all there is. Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch, any of Deepak Chopra’s writings, Ask and It is Given by Esther Hicks, or a little gem of a book called The Game of Life and How to Play It by Florence Schovel Shinn are some good ones off the top of my head to check out. There are many many others along the same lines. You can learn the spiritual tools you need to get out this dark, desolate, and heavy place and into a higher/lighter realm of being. If you just start reading some of this material and remain open to it, you will most likely begin to see glimpses of hope and light that will open you up to a whole new realm of possibilities/realities in your lives. When I was in the depths of depression years ago, I started meditating and within weeks begin feeling literal energy movement and shifting in my body which led to major emotional/spiritual breakthroughs for me. These were energy blocks that were removed and healed. I’ve never returned to that dark and depressed state since. You may think what I’m saying sounds like corny psuedoscience but just try it….read and be open. You’ll see!! We’re spiritual beings having a physical experience! If you’re not awaken/conscious of your spiritual selves, than it’s like being in the land of the living dead.

  55. Liz November 8, 2009 at 10:47 pm #

    Ahhh….how could I forget? Another good book is Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now.” He was in the same miserable place we’ve all been in when he had these amazing epiphanies and and underwent a total transformation. His books are life altering.

    Well, I’m off to sleep. I’m sending thoughts of love and healing to all of your precious but oh-so-weary souls tonight. If your reading this and feeling low, please know that there is so much light and love just waiting on the other side of that metaphorical door (the spirit realm). You just have to search a little for it and it will find you and open ever so slightly and show you the way in. Just keep asking for it and it will find you….I absolutely promise you this. Also, read, read, read these books, and others who have gone before you on this path can show you the way in a hugely powerful way.

  56. Leo November 10, 2009 at 12:31 am #

    Im 14 and fed up with it all, if anyone knows a quick way to end it, it would be greatly appreciated

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 7:18 pm #

      been there.. forever
      but you’re too young to know what it is to be ‘fed up with it all’ You’re young enough to change things. set your sites on your ideal life, chose a path and take it.
      wish I’d known back then that I had that option
      now it’s too late for me
      you can still change things before it’s too late

      • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 3:23 pm #

        Kaila, it’s never too late! You can always decide to wake up and slap life right back. You could be 80 , dying of cancer, etc.. It’s what you set your mind to that matters, that’s the life-changing point. Psychology! I’m 16 but I have no future, there is no hope for me. I have no chance of turning my life around but you do, you’ve got your education, you’ve probably got a job and earn a wage at the end of the day, well you know what, you can do anything you want with that money! You can travel the world, help the needy or just simply learn a language. Countless possibilities! Move town, or even country, start a class of something you enjoy, eg. art, dance, photography… (To be honest, you know what they say ‘practise makes perfect’ so even if you can’t do it then take the damn class and practise until you can. You never know you could produce some amazing and perhaps sell to get your money back, then people are sure to notice you and treat you with the respect and dignity you deserve!) YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU LIKE! It’s what you set your mind to. Remember that… πŸ™‚

        • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 3:38 pm #

          I’m young, yes, and that seems to mean to people that my opinion and experience don’t mean shit. It gives “adults” a reason to mistreat me and disrespect me and that’s what brings me down every day. I fight every day to make things better for myself but I just dig myself a deeper hole. I’ve been honestly all my life but I’ve been lied to and that’s caused me to distrust anyone and everyone.. I’ve set myself up to fail and there’s no going back. I’ve ruined my only chance at education, no workplace wants to employ me because I’m 16, colleges did not accept me due to my poor grades. I get called a slacker by my teachers, but I’m not. I truly try to succeed, I revised for a month every time just to fail my maths exam 6 times. I feel like a failure, no wait. I AM a failure but I still try to fight everyday. So, now I just want to die. Give up on this shit, I’m obviously never going to get my qualifications to ever have a decent job in order to move out of my parents house, who have already tried to kick me out at the fragile age of 14. I’ve had counselling but it didn’t help and no one understands. My only option is to live in another world, and because that is not, in today’s day and age, possible then I’d just like to quietly die. I don’t care if it hurts because I’ve been through so much pain already that it wouldn’t matter to suffer a little bit more in order to leave. πŸ™‚

  57. Mishal November 22, 2009 at 8:23 pm #

    M the one who gets into trouble and then gets all the blame for it.i totally understand its not my fault n nobody’s fault,God is putting me to trials…i want to end my life.

  58. Mishal November 22, 2009 at 8:27 pm #

    May be m the trouble maker,but i never get into fights intentionally,people drag me into their complications,n then put all of its blame on me,…i have disturbed every one’s life…detested by all,family,parents,friend,

  59. Mishal November 22, 2009 at 8:28 pm #

    there is no hope my life would ever becom stable,

  60. Blank page December 28, 2009 at 4:44 pm #

    I know most of the people who comment on this are probably just suicidal after figuring out there boyfriend or girlfriend is some idiot. But i have a true reason for wanting to die.

    My life has been deterierating since i was very young. I am not going to say my real age online but lets just say by this age your supposed to have done something good with your life.

    I am still stuck with a **** life and unlike most other people i am like a living suicide central. Its a curse. I have already watched someone i care about commit suicide and i was forced to help them in there final few minutes.

    I am normally stuck at home sorting out everyone elses problems while my own keep pileing up and up. I am very suicidal and have tried hanging and slitting so far. I was wondering if there was any other quick methods.

    Also on a smaller note i heard that police can do mercy killings if they feel someone is a threat to them. Does anyone know if this is the same in the Uk. As i feel a bullet would be much better for me than living through even more of this pain.

    • kaila December 29, 2009 at 7:23 pm #

      blank page

      how did you feel watching someone you care about die in front of you? how did you feel knowing it was by his/her own hand?
      would anyone you care about have to endure what you endured if you did the same?

      • Blank Page December 31, 2009 at 12:51 pm #

        Thankyou for your help but it seems you are in the same situation as me. Helping others more than yourself. I know the pain and heartbreak that can cause.

        I was heartbroken over her death but i knew that she wanted to go and she felt it was her time. Everyone around me now doesnt care about me as i have now proven.

        I am sorry for all of this but in truth as it is too late for you it is also too late for me. I just want to get a way out of this.

        Also i am wondering whether i should tell others about it and whether they would help me find a quick way out. I know there are no painless ways to die but i must do something to end my life before i cause anyone else any more pain.

        I have made sure noone else around me cares about me and wish to end it soon. Any ideas how?

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 4:03 pm #

      You can’t blame life for the fact that you haven’t achieved. You have to want to achieve something and work for it. To be honest I respect you for helping a loved one commit suicide. Not many people have the guts but you have to respect their decision and the least you could do is help them. At least you know that they wanted you there, they wanted YOU to be the last person they EVER saw through those eyes, the last person they ever touched with that skin, the last person’s voice they ever heard with those ears. They are sure to know that you care, no matter that they are gone now. If it’s what they truly wanted then it’s like their dream and you should be proud to have helped someone achieve their dream, you set that person free. I’m sure now that you’re in the same position you would very much respect the one person that offers to help you get out of this hellhole, the one person that respects YOUR dream. I looked to buy a gun but then discovered that if you mix household items such as vinegar and bleach (acid and bass, neutralisation occurs) then you could potentially kill yourself (theoretical, but you have nothing to lose). I don’t know if it works for a fact but when mixed together, these chemicals do create another chemical formally known as chlorine which, most people don’t know, is a poisonous and deadly gas. So, block the canal, fill up your bath with a couple of litres of both, close any windows and doors firmly and enjoy a perhaps rather slow but painless death. I live in the UK but I don’t think they do that here (shooting you as in), unless you are a direct threat to the the public right there and then, e.g. you have a gun and are firing it or have a knife and are about to stab, or something along the lines. Hope I helped, wishing you peace of mind and lots of luck in the near future and maybe the rest of your life if you decide to continue it.. Just remember, you have to set you mind on something and be committed in order to succeed and achieve something big. Also, just because you haven’t discovered a planet or built a computer the size of a fingernail doesn’t mean you haven’t succeeded. Success is only what YOU believe it to be, even if it’s building a bird-house! πŸ™‚

  61. natasha January 9, 2010 at 2:47 pm #

    What happens when you have done all you can do and its still not good enough.When you try to make your life better and no matter what you still seem to fail.When everyone that you love you watch them one by one day after day turn their back on you and stop loving you.What do you do when everyday your world crashes and you want to give up and just stop the world.How do you deal with your life then when you have no one and have no where to go but out on the streets and no one to care what happens to you and when everyone thinks there life would be better if you were never in it never born.When you have lost everything and everyone what is the point of being alive i cant think of any…I dont want to live a life of being a nobody.

    • Blank Page January 10, 2010 at 9:10 am #

      I dont know whether you will find any consolodation with my words seeing as i am in the same situation too however i hope this might help u.

      Despite what you think there is always someone who can help u or be there for you. Many people u know depend on and trust you. The only thing i can think of is rebuilding. Try new more adventurous things if you feel you have lost everything try rebuilding your life. Find new people and do more exciting things you wouldnt have done before maybe taking up an extreme sport. Give your life a new meaning and live every day to the full. There is always a reason to continue life. Although life is normally dark if you can see a tiny speck of hope or light in the future then you should continue.

  62. nick January 10, 2010 at 3:25 am #

    im shhooting 80 bucks of pure tar in 3 days, imma have a good drive in my car. have a steak and lobster meal and then i am going to cook up a gram and a half and shot it in my neck vein.. if ur gonna do it do it..i was just reading about all u gutless punks who dont have the stones to do it. this is my legacy im 43 from brooklyn , ny in cali.. fuck you all! = ) and some shoot this nigger president!

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 4:41 pm #

      Mate, are you fucking kidding me?!? You live in NY, Cali.. I would die to just visit that place, the land of opportunity. I live in England, it’s shit and it always rains. Most of the people I know are dull and stuck up, at least in the USA there’s variety. Illegal drugs here are exactly that, illegal and most people struggle a lot to get hold of them, what you think I wouldn’t have thought of that by now? Do you understand how expensive it is here to buy heroin or cocaine or anything because it’s so fucking illegal.. Mate, you got it easy, I’ve got the “stones”, what I ain’t got is spare cash and links. -.-

  63. MSK January 17, 2010 at 10:16 am #

    Well gang, if you are feeling blue to the point of no return…just do it!

    My one and only sister killed herself four years ago, no need to say how amazing she was. I’m sure you are all fantastic people as well. Anyway, how to kill your self, just take alot of sedatives, tape a plastic bag (large) around your head and neck and get it over with ( don’t forget the booze!).
    You can look on the pain that you’ve created, feel bad for a bit in your new life and move on.

    The people that cared/liked/loved you will never be the same but really, it’s not about them is it.

    It might make some stronger, and some might follow your lead!

    I know my sister is happy. She lets me know. Still, all I do is wait for my mother to die (I will not be the cause of more pain). I have a good life, but do not want to live it without my sis. So count your lucky stars in wanting to be the first to fuck with everyones life that you know, and look forward to seeing some people on the “other side” that you didn’t think cared.

    I am thankful for the realization that suicide is an option for me, I will die by my own hand once Mom is gone (she sacrificed so much for us). Until then, my life will be FUCKED UP FOREVER regardless of my many “blessings” and lovely relationship, friends, family and whoever else I’ve touched.

    So, if your feeling so disconnected that you can’t bear life, really, just kill yourself, you’ll be much happier. Just remember…you will affect others.

    sweet dreams.

  64. Seema J January 18, 2010 at 9:25 am #

    please don’t play with these words. Some people who want to die might thought about it and are going ahead after weighing everything. We are adults. We CAN and DO make our own decisions. What is it to you if I live or Die? Just give me a way to do it.I can’t be a burden on my family..
    Isn’t it my call to make whether to live or die? You have my email id Just gv me a way!

    • Blank Page January 19, 2010 at 3:33 am #

      “We are adults. We CAN and DO make our own decisions”

      Most of the people who come on here now are not adults but kids. However i see your point about allowing them to make your there own decision.

      And yes the way you put that it does sound very suidicidal 😦

      Anyway the problem here isnt ways as there are many. The problem is the people who talk on here mainly just want to talk before the end if they are certain on ending there life.

      I have currently found many appropriate sites which i could send u if i did have your email. Unfortunately i dont so…

      Here is a few things i`ve tried which have failed:

      Slitting wrists (Back and front)
      Hanging (Much harder than it looks)
      Overdosing (Several different drugs although has caused constant pain)

      • keenan November 28, 2011 at 4:38 pm #

        hey man i wana see those sites if u still alive? keenan.messina@gmail.com

      • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 5:57 pm #

        See, you would classify someone as a child, like me for instance, not because you know or know how much I have been through in order to make the sober decision or whether or not I mature but you would simply base your comments on the age of a person. I’m sorry but if you read my comments and you didn’t know I was 16, would you be able to tell?! Seriously, this is exactly why I want to die because of people constantly telling I’m a child and I can’t make decisions and my opinions don’t matter until I’m an “adult”.. Bullshit. If you knew as much as me, a child, about suicide you would know that 15% out if 100% die after slitting their wrists and, yes, I tried it when I was 12. Remember: Down the road, not across the block. Slice down the length of the vein, if you’re gonna bother at all. I’ve tried hanging when 15, v3 times and yes it is much harder than it looks and much more painful. The final time I tried I hanging for 20 mins suffocating but my body just did not give up! Do you understand how much MORE depressing it is to be a “child” who has failed at life and, more importantly, death 6 times. Do you understand how much that eats away at me everyday?! I took 24 paracetamol tablets, they say you are certain to die with only 10.. I’m perfectly healthy after doing that twice and another 3 times with different medication and drugs. I have tried suffocating myself, eating poisonous plants and I have yet to try mixing bleach with vinegar (which produces a poisonous, deadly gas: chlorine) in order to gas myself to death. I even hired a hitman to kill me but he never turned up.. How shit do you think I feel?! And I’m “only a child”… -.-

  65. fortheloveoflife January 18, 2010 at 9:34 am #

    I hope you don’t think that I feel suicidal.. I just read my comment and felt that it seemed very suicidal πŸ™‚
    I just feel that some ppl are just at the end of their tether and should be allowed to decide for themselves..
    Thee was a case which hogged headlines in Mumbai

  66. fortheloveoflife January 18, 2010 at 9:38 am #

    it was of a man in his late 20s can’t remeber the name..who was completely paralysed and slow death awaited him, he wanted euthanasia, and he his mother fought for him in the courts, the trial dragged on and he had to die painfully. Isn’t that wrong?

  67. Blank Page January 21, 2010 at 7:02 am #

    Just a small update for anyone following my progress on here. And if you are please dont get attached to me because i dont plan to be here long. My current total is 4000mg. The effects have been minor so far. Only small stomach problems. I am going to try another 2400mg today and will post u back on the results.

    Wish you all luck with your attempts

  68. Blank Page January 21, 2010 at 8:14 am #

    Current total: 6400mg

    Wish me luck

    • Blank Page February 3, 2010 at 7:21 am #

      It didnt work 😦

      Anyone know anything else. Drug overdosing doesnt work.

  69. clyte aldys luis February 6, 2010 at 1:57 pm #

    this is very sad..i feel just the way you do. it hurts a lot and it really eats you alive.

  70. samuel April 14, 2010 at 3:53 am #

    uh life is so hard. ive made so many mistakes in life it seems i have no luck at all. i just want to lay down and die. i bought a car within 4 hours of driving it, it died and rolled back into a 2010 tahoe. i got 3 tickets no insurance liability registration. i have a warrant out now b/c i forgot to pay the court. im just trying to find a quick way to die, and now. ugh life sux ass.

  71. Blank Page April 14, 2010 at 6:13 am #

    Asif life wouldnt get any worse. I`m now doing councilling. My partner was thinking about throwing herself off a bridge and i`m currently dealing with a friend who watched someone die infront of them. All this and more is beginning to drive me nuts. It sees that i cant kill myself, would anyone volunteer to kill me?

  72. matrock April 25, 2010 at 10:08 am #

    how about people like myself dieing from lung cancer giving 5 years to live with all the treatment they do to try to save you
    i don’t wont to live like that. would rather end it now . i been reading about cancer treatment and doesn’t look good having lungs taken out and Radiation and what ever else they to do you knowing the last 5 years of your life will be pain full
    i’m thinking of dieing in my sleep some how

  73. juyt66 June 20, 2010 at 9:55 am #

    i was here to die & not read some motherfuckin penis likin vagina smellin shitty booby periody masterbaty info u bloody bastard

  74. Liz June 23, 2010 at 10:46 am #

    I posted on here awhile back. Here’s an excerpt from “Ask and It Is Given” by Esther Hicks. I’ve been reading this book again lately because I had gotten into a pretty dark and confusing place two weeks ago due to getting mired down in what appears to be going wrong in my life. I started meditating several times a day and calling on healing energy to clear the blockages and dense negative energy that I had allowed in from dwelling too much on what I don’t want in life. I had also let a lot of fear and anger seep in which had ultimately left me in a place of feeling very disconnected and apathetic towards life in general. Feeling much much better and can see/feel the light again πŸ™‚

    Here’s the info on p. 55

    “Whenever you have consistently focused on a subject, causing a consistent vibrational activation of it within you, it becomes a practiced or dominant thought. And once that happens, things that match it will begin to manifest around your dominant thought. In the same way that your earlier thought was joined by other thoughts that matched it- now things that match your dominant thought will begin to show up in your experience…the attraction process is very apparent. Once your focused attention has sufficiently activated a dominant vibration within you, things-wanted and unwanted-will begin to make their way into your personal experience. It is Law.”

    If you do meditate, you may feel incredible discomfort/anguish during the process. It’s normal. It’s the negative energy presenting itself to you. Just notice it, accept it, and within time, it will dissipate and you’ll feel much lighter and better. You have to work your way back up to a higher vibrational energy and this takes some time and is an incremental effort.

    Pg. 114 has a rough scale of our emotions outlined. At the top of the scale is “Joy/Knowledge/Empowerment/Freedom/Love/Appreciation” and at the bottom of the scale is “Fear/Grief/ Depression/Despair/Powerlessness.” We all want to be as close to the top of the scale as we can get. It’s very very very possible yet when you are at the bottom it seems inconceivable. This book “Ask and It Is Given” by Esther Hicks is just one of many many tools that are available to transform your life from the lowest place to a much higher one. Also, Eckhardt Tolle’s writings give a profound perspective on the nature of reality.

    I hope this helps someone get out of a dark place today πŸ™‚

  75. ashley June 28, 2010 at 4:39 pm #

    im 15 im 16 friday and my life is very boring i dont go no were dont do nothing but play my ps3 everyday my mom and dad just sleep all day and i feel alone i just want to die i dont belong here earth is hell i want to be in a better place

  76. wanna die July 19, 2010 at 9:51 am #

    I wanna die, I wanna die now. This world is not for me, this is a hell….I can’t live here anymore. Everyday, I cry day and night..I’m so alone, no one bothers about me, no one need me, and I am so useless, just a burden to this world.. This world is full of rubbish and people are fucking mad.. All I want is a simple but a quick way to die..

    I don’t think I won’t last too long with the pain I have but, I want to defeat this life at least, all I had in my life is failure and sorrow… this world has done nothing to me..and here I am ready to leave this place for now and forever..

    could anyone please tell me a quick way to die…

  77. Ashima July 24, 2010 at 4:43 am #

    i really want to die,i love my people n i m sorry,plz tell some methods by which i can die easily,peacefuly,quickly and without pain..trust me i have genuine reasons which cant be reversed plz suggest

    • Douglas J Sunday January 30, 2011 at 4:16 pm #

      I hope your still here. I have been told by two doctors that i have lived the lifetime of more then 10 men and most would die. Im still hear— believe in your self not Wait you here.

  78. ornela September 30, 2010 at 12:12 pm #

    what can i do to die??please answer me as soon as possible

  79. Ereena October 20, 2010 at 7:05 am #

    try this site if you are serious

  80. Ting February 25, 2011 at 1:43 pm #

    I want to die..please…

  81. gurjit March 12, 2011 at 11:02 pm #

    I want to die in my sleep. how can i die in my sleep. I am not happy with my self. please tell me.

  82. kaushal March 16, 2011 at 6:13 am #

    I am fat boy (because i love to eat).Wdf others have problem in it… All the day people just irritate me like hell.All the day in collage people just tease me like hell… THEY tease me like hell on my body figure (which is slightly like girlish due to overweight even on that people tease like hell, Teachers partiality giving marks like 6 and 7 and 8 outof 10 others no decorations on file other things nothing is there than also getting 8 and 9 marks, All time friends teasing me like hell for no reasons ) In so much pressure how somone will able to Take care on study tell me guys…..

    I just want to die simply because i cant handle this kinda situation everyday in my life like this…….

    Pls tell me simple and easy method from which i can leave this world….

    And than no one will be there to tease me so will be happy

    Pls guys help me and tell me simple way to die….

    • jiok March 17, 2011 at 1:34 pm #

      I can understand but u should not waste ur life like this… Leave what they are telling just do what u wanna do…. in ur life… Nothing else Matterss !!!!!

  83. Corpsey April 7, 2011 at 11:03 am #

    I have suffered with depression for about 15 years now on and off and it has become worse this past year. I have been to the clinics, thr Doctors, took the meds, read the books, tried the exercises, eat right (I’m vegaterian) I love my family and friends and the guilt of wanting to die overwhelms me. The pain is so intense, I cut myself often, it helps for a little while but I do feel like I’m going to die by my on hands soon. I’ve researched everything on the subject from books and the internet. Even how to books from the hemlock society. I live, breath, work, sleep, barely function every day with the plans of suicide in the near future. I hate myself and think of my birth as a horrible mistake.
    I feel like a line has been crossed and the only way out is death

  84. karthick April 12, 2011 at 12:18 am #

    Hello friends this is karthick from Hyderabad andhra pradesh. and i am 30 years, really i want die because i am unlucky from all in my life which i giving love to all of parents and friends girl friend they will away from me i don’t know why. and if i went any party’s or any good marriage my friends will ur unlucky person why you attained to party’s from that i decide to die fast very fast that’s why today night i commit suicide myself with powerfully acid.

    • crazy April 27, 2011 at 2:08 am #

      omg… it was a little hard to understand your comment. but just because your wife leaves you and your friends say your unlucky who cares. its better to have bad luck then no luck at all and if luck is your only problem then shit, you are one lucky fucker. also killing yourself with powerfull acid is not the way to go. you should try something nice on yourself like a gun to your head… or a leap of faith a really big one.

  85. crazy April 27, 2011 at 1:59 am #

    I dont know why im posting it is pretty pointless. I would do it, but im afraid of hell you know the whole god thing. even though im not religious, but biting it is pretty serious and you never know. ever since i was young i ve been hopeful and a little will power mixed in is how i made it this far. but i think everything else in life that we use to get by, it runs out im running on fumes and soon my tank of hope and will power is empty. its not that i cant deal with pain and the sadness, anxiety, consistent numbness to everything around me. I could probably do it till im old and grey, that part doesnt really freak me out. what freaks me out is being old and grey and laying there and thinking what a waist. a fucking waist not one memory worth remembering not one person in the room that actually loved me unconditional. thinking how every time i put myself out there looking and risking my emotions for that unconditional love and every time been betrayed lied to spite on. that is what makes it very hard not to jump. not to free fall to a new darkness in fact its starting to sound sweet. i think maybe if somewhere out there is a place where when you walk in to a room and ppl say hey how are you they actually want to know and care what the real answer is and aren’t waiting for some generic bullshit answer. maybe if ppl weren’t so afraid of what really goes on in someones head that isn’t full of puppies and candy. there wouldn’t be a web page such as this one full of pussy assholes such as ourselves. maybe we should stop the denial and man up and admit we are a problem and stop blaming everyone else for the way we feel and forgive ourselves. for our shitty feelings and just be, we dont have to be happy or sad. just maybe if we could just be, dont smile when someone smiles at you dont put any effort in to loving someone else or letting someone love you. dont do anything, just do what you need to get get by. and maybe if you live like u feel and treat ppl like u feel ( dont beat anyone) maybe things will happen. i seriously doubt it. but i heard somewhere that in the moments of your life things become clear and in that moment you can see all the answer to your problems. but then its to late so i think i will give up in another way. i will discontinue talking to anyone and everyone become mute and i will only do what it takes to get by. because for some reason there is this voice in my head that is small but powerful telling me not to do it, thats all it tells me to do no other advice no other details just that. that is its only message and until i cant hear it anymore i will not to do it. and that scares me! fuck it there just words…

  86. michael May 2, 2011 at 2:57 am #

    Get lethal injection.
    1st injection will make you unconcious.
    2nd injection will make you paralyse.
    3rd injection is a lethal injection which stops your heart beat and you die in seconds.
    This procedure takes below 5 minutes, means you die within 5 minutes.
    I think it is banned in using lethal injection in many country.
    See if it is available in your country.
    Many prisoners are given lethal injection in some parts of the world.

  87. michael May 2, 2011 at 2:57 am #

    3rd injection name is potassium cynide

  88. katic May 4, 2011 at 2:33 pm #

    iam tired. i can’t keep live. im suffering in this fucking life

  89. katic May 4, 2011 at 2:46 pm #

    I dont want to be happy or be miserable, all I want is death.i dont give a fuck about whole word, but i still don’t know why.

  90. lahari June 2, 2011 at 3:11 am #

    i want to die. my family is hating me lot. hw i die? wen i die my family will be happy i want tat

  91. Monty June 21, 2011 at 3:31 am #

    My Family doesn’t care I live or die ….. I want to die as soon as possible please I beg you… some one please help me….. mail me some good ideas for dying quickly ….without pain …. mail me on chocolatyboyforyou@yahoo.com help me please I’ll be thankful to you …

  92. Kess June 23, 2011 at 9:39 pm #

    i also want to die.. tired of everything.. tired of attending classes in the course which is no my choice.. tired of hanging here in my dorm where the i know all the people here hate me.. tired of doing things against my will..damn..

  93. Alone At Last July 6, 2011 at 1:13 am #

    My thoughts of suicide have been building up since i was 12. I slowly pushed away everything. And now I dont care about anyone or aything. I try to care but my mind just won’t let me. I’m 15 years old and am planning on killing myself after this post. Its not going to be quick and painless. For there is no quick and painless way. The thoughts of what you are about to do will make it hard for you. No matter how quick it is. If your havinng a hard time killing yourself it’s because your not ready and theres still hope for you. Me i have no problem in slitting my wrists. I plan to watch the blood flow out as i sit there in the pain. But my emtional is far more great thenn any physical pain. So with this being said. I leave you with this to think about. If you cant kill yourself and sit through the pain. Then your not ready to die.Goodbye. Its time for me to end this.

  94. sasha July 14, 2011 at 4:33 pm #

    the pain i hv suffered is to unbearable to think about. i am doin it in three days, then i will be outta of this disgusting hate filled world humans are the ugliest species…… i cant wait to go 23 years and now i have had enough, year afta year god or fuckin something has tested me i have lost my parents been raped beaten 3 or 4 times now i hav had enough ………….. i feel if i dont die i will hurt somone and end up banged up in pyschiatric unit . i cant wait i have it all planned and i am i gonna drift off into a sleep where i wont be in pain ever again. counselling never works as they say scars neva fade

  95. SHeila July 17, 2011 at 10:42 pm #

    I don’t want to know why to live. I want to know how to die. I know some people just don’t get it and will tell me that others are going through the same thing i’m going through or even worse but please. Just tell me how to DIE!!!

  96. komal July 23, 2011 at 6:24 am #

    god does nt love me nor my family….my frndz nt care…life is hell……………………nd i want to die…any1 help!!!!!!!!!

  97. loser July 25, 2011 at 10:16 am #

    i wanna die too..i’m 20 n i need a quick n painless way to die so that even my parents shouldnt knw that i’m dead..

    • dave August 31, 2011 at 4:13 pm #

      moi jveu juste creuver je veu pas de cette vie

  98. Tyler September 3, 2011 at 9:42 am #

    ok, im 12 and i know this will sound stupid but what is the quickest way to die because im so FUCKING SICL OF MY STUPID LIFE! so if this doesn’t tell me i will keep looking :/

  99. Elizabeth October 3, 2011 at 7:37 am #

    Well…there it all is, every single valid point of view. Humans are cruel, aren’t they? Even all the new books on “law of attraction” have a selfish and greedy bent…how can we be happy here when our planet has been raped, when women and children are still treated horribly and our leaders are part of an elaborate plan to dominate and control everything on a world scale? I think sane people are depressed and idiots are happy in this time. It’s the intelligent, sensitive, creative and beautiful angels like you who suffer the most…think of the saints, think of the crucifixion…and anyone who has ever dared to come forward with a truth and a message of freedom of any kind, they have been met with jealousy and exclusion, persecution and often death. We are the dark angels, not as in evil, but as deep in feeling, creativity, capacity to love and be loved, and generally misunderstood, and we require much more love than the human and we feel empty because we have a larger soul space to fill. If you want to die, and die well, do something so brave and creative and amazing that the evil in the world will automatically try to destroy you. Write something, paint something, compose something that expresses your vision and your feelings, and don’t judge your work. No one needs to hear your songs, of see your drawings, if you are shy…but you will transform yourself…because the only alternative to being truly suicidal is to become an artist…it is your true nature and will relieve the pain temporarily every time. As a depressed one, the pain will always be AGAINST you. As an artist, the pain will always be there FOR you…use it.

  100. IM A USELESS October 9, 2011 at 1:11 am #


  101. mohana October 17, 2011 at 6:51 am #

    I don’t want to live this world, everyone will say that mother is god, but in my case its not true.. if some one scold you badly or with local bad words, we’ll till to mom, if mom will scold like that, there no place for me to go, please god take me with you.. i dont want to live alone in this world.. so get me with me… i have to die today… :’-(

  102. Jason October 31, 2011 at 10:51 am #

    If their is any females out their, that would like to talk or would just like a friend to talk to…please feel free to email at montgomery57@hotmail.com

  103. mee November 26, 2011 at 2:12 pm #

    i do not want to live please tell me how to die

    • Jen December 7, 2011 at 7:32 am #

      me too

  104. keenan November 28, 2011 at 2:30 pm #

    I just wana know if any1 has a quick method to kill myself with the least pain possiblle i’ve suffered so much physically and mentally.If theres any1 out there who knows how please reply asap I cant take the pain anymore.

    • Jen December 7, 2011 at 7:33 am #

      let me know

    • Jen December 9, 2011 at 6:30 am #

      turn to GOD – JUST CALL OUT 4 jesus true he will save you

      • Jen December 27, 2011 at 3:10 am #

        I have heard that a lot

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 6:27 pm #

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      • keenan May 28, 2012 at 1:04 am #

        Fuck god and fuck faith i`ve never seen god prove to be worshiped in the here and now. If he did im sure many people would find more than enough reason to serve him or atleast find reason to live and follow their dreams. I so much wanted to die for many reasons but regardless i decided to keep living and working towards my goals because then all the pain and suffering i`ve been through will have meant something. I know that many people won`t feel the same because i couldn`t possibly imagine the pain we`ve all experienced, even so we have to keep living for what you desire most. People who feel the same let us unite because alone we can change nothing but together we can stop this cycle of suicide that has gone on for far too long, put aside your pain, sorrow, anguish and look deep within yourself for the reason to keep living to keep working and striving towards what you believe. Don`t up give otherwise all that you have survived and suffered through will have been for nothing, and if I am wrong then what fucking hope do we have.

  105. Gopi December 14, 2011 at 6:59 am #

    Pata nahi jindgi ne mujhe gum ke siva our kuch nahi diya is duniya me apno hi hamare dushman bangaye hai mujhe is jindgi se bahut tang aagaya hai. I want to die. I am 18 year old. Itne choti umar me mujhe jina nahi horaha hai agar me our jinda rahutho aage kya kya sehna padega jindgi me,, is duniya me sirf paisa hi kaam aata hai,, pyar k liye is duniya me kisibi taraha jaga nahi hai, paisa rhega tho sab hamare paas aate hai! Paisa nahi tho koi nahi. Yesa jindgi jeenese marna hi bhetar hai

  106. Prashant January 5, 2012 at 12:20 pm #

    I want to die. Please suggest me some quick die method with no pain. I want finish my life. My life is very wort and i cant live anymore. I want in out of this world. There is no place for me in this world. I want to die.

  107. Julie January 9, 2012 at 2:42 pm #

    I dont think anyone one here will be able to help anyone else by words.

    People want to die becuase of the way their life is. People that say “but you have so much to live for” really DONT know what real pain or lonliness is.

    To those that do not want to commit suicide – live every minute of every day because one day you could wake up and your family could be dead. you could be chronically ill. you could be raped. you could be abandoned. something could happen that is nobodys fault. you life could be ruined. it could be you.

    so instead of preaching to others, life every day like its your last and resprect those that really dont have much to live for. respect their wishes, accept it, becuase one day it could be you

    • Kiki January 9, 2012 at 3:41 pm #

      You know what? You’re very right and thank you ever so much since you are the only person I have heard this from in my life. All my respect goes to you. Julie, and may peace and serenity fulfil your life!

  108. Kiki January 9, 2012 at 6:26 pm #

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  109. Teresa March 25, 2012 at 10:26 pm #

    I want to die so badly. I’m so tired of all this shit happening in my life. I’m 18 years old. I was born with a rare syndrome called Popliteal pterygium syndrome. I had over 25 surgeries from the moment I was born until now. Spending most of my life in a hospital mostly fighting for my life. I was put in foster care because my birth mom couldn’t take care of me. She had a mental illness called schizophrenia. I don’t even know who my dad is. When I was in foster care they would get money off of me because of my syndrome. I didn’t start talking until I was about 6 years old. I didn’t even began to walk until I was about 8 years old. I have scars on my legs & feet. People stare at me in stores when I wear flip flops and shorts like a normal teenager girl. I have a cleft lip, missing teeth which my friends don’t even know about because I have fake teeth. I moved out of my adopted moms house on Christmas day. Now, living w/ my Aunt. My mom didn’t give me a graduation party for graduating high school. My adoptive family really didn’t even say they are happy for me graduating HS they just act like its another day. At my moms house when I lived there I slept on the floor while my mom and my little brother who is 14 slept on beds. Now, I’m in College wait I’m taking classes at a College to get to College level because of my learning differences. I’m only at middle school level when I’m supposed to be at College level. My mom and most of my Aunts tell me to work harder when I’m already going to tutoring, studying for 9 hours straight. When still I work hard but yet I get 30s on tests in class and a 10 on homework assignments. I feel so stupid. When I was in High School my nickname was scared legs and crooked mouth. Those words still hurt me a lot. They are always in my head. I have been suffering w/ a major depression disorder for 8 years now. And I’m sick and tired of it. I think I’m an allstar cheerleader and that I’m famous . Which makes me feel happy but my family thinks i’m crazy. I have gotten raped so many times and guys use me for my body. Which hurts a lot. All I want is someone to love me. I don’t want to be sad anymore. I want all of the pain to stop. I want to feel how it feels to be happy. I never had that feeling before. I want to feel accepted as a person a human being and not a strange looking creature. All of my hope is gone. Someone please tell me a quick way to die. Please I’m begging you.

    • Deirdre March 30, 2012 at 2:25 am #

      Teresa, Please dont give up! If you can think of just one beautiful thing, just one thing to keep you going.
      I am shocked by all that you have been through. But what is equally shocking is that you are still here! There must be some inner strength, something inside you, telling you to press on.

      • Teresa August 31, 2012 at 2:31 am #

        Thank you. And I am doing better from when I posted that. I didn’t give up on hope and I hope all of these people on here that want to die. Can get help before its too late. I am still dealing with a lot right now but I won’t kill myself its not worth it. Anyways, thank you for replying it means a lot to me πŸ™‚

  110. deepak May 20, 2012 at 1:51 am #

    i lso want to die nobody is haapy wid me in thss worldd.

  111. Bec June 2, 2012 at 10:16 pm #

    Don’t you care about all the people who will miss you? Don’t say that there isn’t anyone. There is always someone, something to live for. I read these comments and realise that half of you could be dead by now.

    All of you whith children. How dare you! How could you leave your children all alone in the world! I’m 13, and I would rather die than lose my parents. You selfish, selfish creatures. You say that humans are disgusting, vile beings, yet here you are, wanting to leave your kids alone in this world.

    Yes, humankind are horrible things, but we can try to change it.

    Yes it may never happen, but what is the point of living if we don’t try. Because, no matter how bad things get, someone, somewhere is always worse off. Be happy for what you have.

    Please believe me. There is always hope. When you hit rock bottom, the only direction is up. No matter how dark it is, there will always be better.

    “The sun’ll come out, tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there’ll be sun.”

    -Annie ‘Tomorrow.

    • T6J2E5 July 9, 2012 at 7:34 pm #

      What if I don’t have children… or a wife/girlfriend… or a family… or a job… or a home… or money… or marketable skills? There really ISN’T anyone who depends on me or would miss me. Why am I a “selfish, selfish creature” and a “disgusting, vile being?”

    • Lisa September 19, 2012 at 12:30 am #

      What if your parents hate you? What if your parents are the ones telling you that they wouldn’t care if you were dead? What if you really had no one or nothing to really live for, does one teenagers’ death really matter? I already know I will not be missed.

  112. T6J2E5 July 9, 2012 at 7:30 pm #

    I’m sorry, but this article didn’t really SAY anything. It was just a rambling exposition on how you felt pretty bad at one point, too. You never provide insight into how you overcame it. I don’t have the option of going to hospital or seeing a doctor. Those things cost money that I don’t have, and I fall through the social support cracks. The way my society is set up, I really AM completely forgotten in the system. This article didn’t help me find answers to any of my questions.

  113. SABRINA ANTHONY July 11, 2012 at 7:23 pm #


  114. Coco Mae July 29, 2012 at 1:26 am #

    If i ever hve an option , i dunwanna be born , so fucked up with d loads of shitt with there will be someone there waiting 4 u to share ur life with, datz juz crap , people live just 4 themselves , no one actually lives 4 d other, what is really scary of diz world is actually human beings ourselves. So sick of heAring happy endings , happy endings only does happen in fairy tales , thia is reality so fuck those people who ignore that n belive they will be happy ! I think of dying every single day be4 i went to bed , i just wanna b deAd already ! But nothing works 4 me , though i havent tried jumping, coz i hate a mess of myself , well fuck that hopefully someday theres gonna b a right dosage to be dead qithout someone noticing !

  115. secrettestingground August 26, 2012 at 7:29 am #

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  116. Lisa September 19, 2012 at 12:24 am #

    I’m 15, and i know people will probably think I’m too young to be thinking about suicide and killing my self, but really I have no reason to live anymore; everyone hates me. I’m lonely as hell, and always have to pretend that I’m the perfect little student. My parents are abusive at home, and my mother told me she regrets giving birth to me and keeps on reminding me of the fact that she hates me. So really I’ve got no reason to live, I don’t even think I will be missed when I’m gone or remembered.

    • cek October 21, 2012 at 8:45 pm #

      You r not too young to b feeling this way. U r just an extremely insightful person. The world sucks and we r all going to die anyways so why not at our own choosing? I am 55 and have felt alone in this world since I was about 3. I was only able to survive high school cuz of drugs and the silly belief that I was going to die b4 I turned 17! Lol. Ignore those self-centered and self righteous people who want us to go on suffering cuz they stupidly believe there is some sort of Entity out there who loves us. What a bunch of BS. I’ve been on antidepressants for ever. I have recently been studying right-to-die methods. There r even books on the best methods. I have even talked to my children about this. I have the most wonderful children in the world as even tho they do not want me to die they know how horrible it is for me to wake up every day with the agony of depression. They support me in my right to die as I see fit. I think that growing up in abusive families alters your brain activity and research is beginning to support this. In other words the pain is there almost forever. As for you Lisa, try to hang in there until you’re an adult. Try to get on meds for now and maybe it’s still early enough for you to make a difference. You will not be forgotten by me as you posted this on 9/19 which was my daughter’s 18th birthday! Unfortunately my kids suffer from depression and anxiety too but I’ve gotten them in to good doctors so their symptoms are mild. I wish I could help you out and save you from your family. I have forgiven my family long ago but that hasn’t eased my depression any! I hope you’re doing better. Love, an understanding human being. Write back

  117. allkinds October 3, 2012 at 5:50 pm #

    god hates you all

    • Christy Hart October 3, 2012 at 9:34 pm #

      how intelligent

  118. Dorvin December 20, 2012 at 7:56 am #

    Lisa, you are too small to think in this way.. I can help you live better….

  119. Tapati Sanyal December 25, 2012 at 2:49 am #

    I cant live anymore.because whom i love so much he couldn’t feel my pain. i believe him thannanyone.everything was right. why he broke my belief so badly.i never lied him.i did everything for him, but he dont give me thet honour, dont even speaks me a single truth…. so hurts me so badly..I do everything 4 him, only for him so that he dont face any problem….. everybody including my parents laughs at me.I dont have wish to live anymore. everyday i have to go that workplace, where i have to do things for his office. i cant tolerate this.plz help me & suggest any way to die surely

  120. heena January 3, 2013 at 1:00 pm #

    I wanna die… Wat shd i do to die without pain ???

  121. stick a fork in me I'm done February 17, 2013 at 11:50 pm #

    I’ve been dealing with grief for the last 6+ years. My only child OD; strange when ironic events bite you in the ass isn’t it. I made an attempt at suicide at 18 and woke with a wicked hang-over, my son wasn’t so lucky. I remember all those comments “I just don’t think I could do it” How do you do it?’ I started to feel guilty that I was still breathing, and still do. I’m not wanting sympathy just understanding if there is any. My son was really to only good deed I’ve ever done. I so tired of feeling so guilty and ashamed that I still live, me that wanted life over for myself, When my son, Garrett, loved his life and he had friends that were cream of the crop and bottom of the barrel. Where I have none…never had really….Guess just venting but planning too….I would welcome pain at least it is a feeling not this numb walk though this lonely path of life.

  122. marzrit April 25, 2013 at 7:16 am #

    at the begining of my age that is at my child hood age i was so beautiful boy but day by day i started becoming like a girl so every one will hurt my heart like a hell.i cried many times and i attempted suciede by eating pills for more than 10 times. at one time when i took 32 pills my heart slowly stopped its beating.i cant feel taste in my tongue .and at the end my mother found my activity and take me to the hospital and there my pulse was only 44, im almost dead.but my doc had saved me.u know what, suciede is a stupid and worst case of mental eoxposiveness .some time i had happiness but not all the time. i dont know why god is still making me to live.u know guys i worked harder and harder and reduced my feminish character and im growing hot and handsome man

  123. unknown!! August 17, 2013 at 4:27 am #

    i am a 14 year old girl i am very VERY unhappy i cry up to 3 times a day. i am bullied at school and hate every minute of my life my parents always argue so i cant talk to them even if i did they would only shout at me. i feel terible and i want to die. but i no how lucky i am i have four lovely horses which i dont want to leave behind also my teacher has already tried to take me to a mental health clinc and i refused , so dont try that. every time i think about school i have a panick attach. my mum does not no about tbis or anything else. can some one please tel me what to do so i can be happy

  124. rajput April 21, 2014 at 5:10 am #

    hello i have 95% pure potesium cyanide if anyone want contact me on ratan0700@gmail.com

  125. Barry May 16, 2014 at 5:31 pm #

    no help at all I WANT TO DIE!

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