8 Jul

I have to go back today.

I don’t want to. Or I do. I’m not sure. I could be there another day, or another week.

It’s safe there, quiet, I have my own space where no one touches me, no one speaks to me, no one is on me constantly.

It’s tempting to want to stray there. But it’s not real.

10 Responses to “”

  1. PrettyMommy July 8, 2007 at 10:15 am #

    You can do it-you can do what you need to there, and leave when the time is right.

    You’ve come so far already. I’ll be thinking about you.

  2. jen July 8, 2007 at 3:30 pm #

    it’s all real. you most of all.

  3. CharmingDriver July 8, 2007 at 4:46 pm #

    It’s as real as anything else right now, babe.

    Hugs. Go feel better.

  4. karriew July 8, 2007 at 5:08 pm #

    Take care of yourself and enjoy the quiet.

  5. Marcy July 8, 2007 at 5:29 pm #

    I think I know that feeling. I felt so much better in the hospital, but I also felt that it was just because I was away from the baby and the house and all that. Still, sometimes the mere physicality of silence, sleep, and space, even though it doesn’t last, gives us something important.

  6. radicalmama July 8, 2007 at 8:26 pm #

    Take care, thor.

  7. jkdufair July 8, 2007 at 11:13 pm #

    I hope the remainder of the visit does you good. Lots of good. Glad you made the leap.

  8. ann adams July 9, 2007 at 1:43 am #

    It will be a safe place for you. Take care of yourself.

  9. Lady M July 9, 2007 at 3:22 am #

    It’s all real. It’s just sometimes especially important to have that quiet space for a while. Wishing you the best.

  10. Bromac July 9, 2007 at 9:43 am #

    You can do this. Concentrate on you.

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