Registering for school?!! Already!

8 Jun

In a few months, I’ll need to register Vivian for school.

You heard that right. SCHOOL.

I’ve got mixed emotions about sending her to school here-I’d love to homeschool, but I wouldn’t make a good teacher. (Trust me on that one). I’d love a catholic school, but they have none here. So the local public school it will be.

I remember my entry interview as a child-feeling judged and curious as to what we were doing. But on my best behaviour, dressed pretty in a home made dress. I was so excited for school! A place to learn, to have fun!

A few years later, and I was sadly disappointed by school. It wasn’t about learning-it was about curriculum. And that saddened me most of all.

Vivian is curious about the world around her, engaged, willing to work to find answers. She’s alive! How long until school crushes that out of her? How long will it take for the little girl I know to disappear under the baggage of school? How long will it take for her energy, and sweetness to be erased? Am I making a mountain out of a molehill?

It feels like yesterday I had just brought her home. And suddenly, she’ll be preparing for school! Where has the time gone? The years? How much longer will she tumble on the floor in front of me, trying to do gymnastics? How much longer will she throw her arms around me unselfconsciously? She’s already started the “I hate my Mommy” routine when mad-will that become real?

She’s excited to start school, and I know she’s ready-she loves other kids, loves it when someone draws her into learning. I suppose that many of my fears are worries about the social aspects. I hate knowing that someone will be mean to her. I know that’s part of life, but I remember being that kid. How I’d love to spare her that. But considering how assertive and strong willed she is, I’m sure more than a few kids will have an issue.

But how do I teach her about that?

Meanwhile, I’ll sit here as she tells me “poof! Your computer is a dog! Poof! You’re a cat!” and adore the fact that I love my daughter, and her quirks. It’s the quirks I worry about being erased. She’s so much herself, and I never want her to question that.

15 Responses to “Registering for school?!! Already!”

  1. Marcy June 8, 2007 at 8:46 am #

    Boy did I ever have a hard time with my quirks and the crowd… but I remember thinking that, while I wished more other people liked me, I wasn’t willing to change who I was to match their expectations.

    And I’m with you on the uncertainty of how to parent someone who’s strong-willed and quirky.

  2. peppylady June 8, 2007 at 9:25 am #

    The years go by very quickly when there in school. My oldest one just graduated and off to college (fingers crossed)
    When school starts this year my baby will be junior (grade 11)
    I’m sure glad we sent our boys to public school but our school are small year.
    Sawyer class only had 96 in it.

  3. radicalmama June 8, 2007 at 9:45 am #

    I am still sad that A went to kindergarden this year. I feel like I missed a whole year of her life, and I will keep missing them, year after year, until she is gone. I am so looking forward to summer with her.

  4. missy June 8, 2007 at 10:03 am #

    She’s way too young to worry about the social things. From the way you describe her, she is very socially adept and will likely be a leader. And love it.

    Now middle school, that’s another story.

    One of my neigbors homeschooled her two youngest (she had seven–and people think I’m nuts) just for 7th and 8th grade to protect them from the social shit. Smartest thing to do if you can. Her daughter moved into high school whole, intact, a star softball player, and… valedictorian.

    But like you, I am not a homeschooling mama. It’s good to identify our weaknesses, right?

  5. thordora June 8, 2007 at 10:11 am #

    Gawd Missy-homeschooling for those ages would be a great idea. But alas, I’m not the one to do it…

  6. Jennnifer June 8, 2007 at 10:46 am #

    A Catholic school? I thought you were agnostic?

    I’ve been reading about the whole “school crushing spirit thing” and the majority of it says that there are parents who are passive about letting the school teach their children, then there are the active parents that don’t let school stop. So, turning everything into a teaching moment, doing experiments on the weekends, lots of reading, exploring, answering questions.

    Thats what I plan on doing anyway. I;m with you on the homeschool thing.

  7. landismom June 8, 2007 at 10:48 am #

    It’s quite a trying time, that kindergarten transition. And at the same time, I found it pretty rewarding to see my daughter make new friends and learn many new things. Good luck!

  8. thordora June 8, 2007 at 11:12 am #

    I’m an atheist, but after going through both systems, we both believe the better education is through the catholic system. You didn’t get away with the same amount of crap, and I can counter the religon. Plus, I turned out an atheist after 10 years of catholic school-I’m not too worried. 🙂

  9. Nat June 8, 2007 at 11:59 am #

    Holy crap balls… School already!!!!

  10. Nat June 8, 2007 at 12:01 pm #

    Too bad most of us can’t afford private school. There’s a private one in Moncton (a girl at my work sends her daughter there) and apparently they’re really great.

  11. thordora June 8, 2007 at 12:17 pm #

    I checked the Montasorri (I can’t spell today) rates and we totally can’t afford them. Sigh…

  12. ann adams June 8, 2007 at 4:43 pm #

    She’ll probably do fine but I agree with you about learning vs curriculum but at least you don’t have to deal with No Child Left Behind.

    It will be an exciting time for her with something new every day to show you.

  13. nell June 8, 2007 at 9:14 pm #

    I’m going through the same thing with my daughter at the moment. She’s SO excited about going to school and I am so worried that she (and I) will be disappointed.

    Like you, I would love to homeschool, but can’t picture myself teaching, and can’t afford Montessori. Sigh. Guess I’ll just have to counter all the public school crap as best I can from this end.

  14. thordora June 9, 2007 at 5:02 pm #

    I’ve just decided to not think about it anymore.

    However, today I watched her play with a few kids together, and it was cool to watch. Seeing her hold her own, excited to play.

    It was cool.

  15. bine June 12, 2007 at 8:39 am #

    awwww … i guess it’s gonna be hard to let her go, but fun, too. she’ll make new friends, discover new games, learn amazing new facts. it’ll be a long time until school really starts to be stressful. and knowing that she’s a smart chick, i guess she’ll probably handle it well. it’s not all school from now on.

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