All right bastard fat ass

9 Apr

I  think I’m ready to fight you off for good this time.

I restarted my Sparkpeople account. I tallied up my calories for today. (Not bad if I don’t eat dinner). I’d walk home if there wasn’t 3 feet of snow everywhere.

I’m tired of feeling tired, tired of not setting an example for my children. But I don’t want to try some stupid diet that I’ll never stick to. I can’t not eat flour, since my buttermilk pancakes aren’t nearly as good with whole wheat flour. Live without potatoes? HA!

So I’m going to try again. I’ve done this before, and when I was motivated to do it, it was working. I’m hoping that the Wellbutrin will allow me to maintain a level and stick with something for the first time in my life.

Cause you know? It would be nice to get back into even a size 18 pants. I won’t get much smaller than size 16 due to hips that shifted, but hell, being able to buy pants in a “normal” store would be a step up.

I know that the majority of my problem is far too many calories ingested, and ZERO exercise (It’s winter). So it’s time for me to shut up, and stop eating! right? (And it’s also time for my father to stop making pies, but I digress)

Any advice for good cookbooks for lighter eating? I’m picky, and like weird stuff (like plain rice cakes-yum!)

I quit smoking cold turkey. I can lose the flubber, right?

15 Responses to “All right bastard fat ass”

  1. HipMommy April 9, 2007 at 5:09 pm #

    You can do it! I lost about 40lbs in 2006, went from popping out of size 16 to a comfortable size 10-12. I didn’t aim for skinnyness…I aimed for “outta plus size” which was more realistic!

    I used fit-day, and found tracking what I eat and how much I exercise every day really motivated me to make healthier choices…no gimmicks though.

    Good Luck! You can do it!

  2. thordora April 9, 2007 at 5:20 pm #

    I know that tracking what I eat REALLY works in a “OMFG I cannot BELIEVE I just ate that!” kinda way. And I am, for the most part, making healthy choices, I just eat too much! Getting off the Celexa should help-it gave me this enormous appetite.

    I’d still like to know what’s bloating me all to hell though…

  3. heidi April 9, 2007 at 6:49 pm #

    I’m with you, girl. I ordered the book Eat For Life, which sounds like exactly what I know already but need to see in writing. I can’t fit in an 18 anymore either and my natural size is a 12, so blech. Actually, post baby my hips may have migrated out into a 14 but still.

    Can you try to find foods that are natural diuretics? I know cucumber is one but there are others too.

  4. Caitlin April 9, 2007 at 8:52 pm #

    I’m on sparkpeople too. I started using a food scale to weigh my food when I cook and it has really helped me get my portions under control. The other thing that has really helped is taking exercise classes at the rec center a couple of times a week. Paul is just at an age where I can’t do workout dvds unless I want him hanging off me or trying to push me off the bosu.

    As far as cookbooks go, the new Complete Weight Watchers cookbook is pretty good. They have a decent amount of modified “real” food recipes. I haven’t really had much of a problem staying under 1600 calories with their recipes. I’m a meat and potatoes type of girl, and that’s the only cookbook I’ve found that has recipes that satisfy those cravings.

  5. Jason Dufair April 9, 2007 at 10:19 pm #

    I am 100% behind you, whatever you choose, Thor. I think you have a strong resolve when you set out to do something. You’ve had to have that. So I think you’ll be successful with this. I compare my current efforts to my quitting smoking cold turkey at 21 after 7 years of smoking. It motivates me. I’m down about 17 lbs since MLK day. We can ALL do this. I HAVE to do this. I’m my kids’ only parent.

  6. crunchy April 9, 2007 at 11:42 pm #

    Ugh..yeah I signed on the spark thing…was all excited and then did nothing… I should actually read all the HELP instead of ignoring it.

    I am stuck between a 16 and an 18 (cdn) and am far too much of an emotional eater to fight the power!

    I am not getting ANY exercise either…. I need to balance my eating…no snacking, eat normal meals and get some fitness ….I dream of being a 14. I would be soooo happy.

  7. Jennnifer April 9, 2007 at 11:48 pm #

    Ignore the scale, instead take measurements, eat things with fewer ingredients, switch to butter, away from margerine (you’ll use less and the calories are the SAME per serving), use weights, muscles burn more calories per day than useless fat, get up at the asscrack of dawn, put on your Ipod and walk your ass off in the dark before anyone is awake and watch the sun rise. Drink more water. Your body stores water when you don’t drink enough. Drink more and you’ll shed water weight because your body no longer things its having a drought.

    Mind you, I “know” all this but I have a hard time following it.

    Good luck.

  8. mercurial scribe April 10, 2007 at 3:49 am #

    Yes you can!

    Hopefully, i can too.

  9. thordora April 10, 2007 at 6:44 am #

    Jennifer-that made me snicker… I know all of it too. But maybe drinking more water will help the bloat…

    Thanks for the advice guys. Here goes nothin….

  10. Nat April 10, 2007 at 10:04 am #

    The Looney Spoons books are awesome… I want one SO bad. (Rigth now, I keep getting recipes from their show on Food TV)

    Good gift idea for my bday next month. hahahaha 😉 (just teasing)

    Guess what: getting another tattoo, FINALLY. I am using that bonus check for ME, for a change. I need to go to the tattoo artist to get him to design what I want first, but I’m getting it next month.

  11. CharmingDriver April 10, 2007 at 10:10 am #

    I second the love of Fit Day – it really is an eye opener to see the breakdown, especially when you don’t ”feel” like you’ve eaten all that much.

    Good luck, this is something you can do!

  12. thordora April 10, 2007 at 10:57 am #

    I actually know what I want to get next for tattoos. I could start my sleeve, but I’m cheap, so instead I’ll be getting 2 inch black bands around my wrists-symbolic of making it this far without slitting them, and as a reminder of how hard I have to fight for my own life against myself sometimes.

    I never liked the Looney Toons books myself….

    And yes, it is a HUGE eye opener to see just how many calories are in things. I remember typing in a handful of nuts last summer, and nearly shitting myself.

  13. bine April 10, 2007 at 1:19 pm #

    i’m joining the crew.
    i think in american lbs i weigh about 200 now and i feel shit. i’m constantly exhausted and out of breath, i miss all the fun things i used to do when i didn’t have to lug all that stuff around.
    spring is here, i’m getting a bike, plus i’ll return to swimming which worked good for me ten years ago.
    i also have to cut down on the late-night snacks. either sweet or salty and greasy, they are the worst.

    i hope the wellbutrin works for you, and that you will enjoy seeing pound after pound melt away. looking forward to it myself.

  14. bromac April 10, 2007 at 1:58 pm #

    Yes, if you broke the nicotine addiction, I think you can do anything.

    I think counting calories is a great way to begin making yourself more accountable. I never used a website but my husband and I would sit down with the gigantic calorie counter book we had and count the calories. It made us so much more aware of what we were putting in our mouths.

    You can do it!!!!!!

  15. thordora April 10, 2007 at 2:00 pm #

    Let’s not talk about the half price mini eggs I’m currently ingesting though….

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