“bipolar hate showing weakness”

6 Feb

Don’t we all.

I think it’s one of the listed items in the DSM for bipolar diagnosis. We can’t be weak-we won’t be weak. Then someone might find us out, might figure out what’s really with us, might figure out that we’re big fat whiny fakers who are really just whiny, crying babies in the corner. We don’t want anyone to think we aren’t stronger than they are, smarter, braver.

Who are we kidding, really?

Somedays all I want is to curl up in someone’s arms and be a tiny little girl, something weak, a day old kitten, and be petted and taken care of. It would be so easy.

But that would be weakness, and I shun it.

Get used to it.

3 Responses to ““bipolar hate showing weakness””

  1. misspudding February 7, 2007 at 2:30 am #

    Hmmm, maybe I’m bipolar…

    Who doesn’t hate showing weakness? Seriously?

  2. bromac February 7, 2007 at 1:03 pm #

    I was just diagnosed Bipolar Type II last week. My husband and I have been arguing terribly for several weeks. Last night was no different, just worse.

    He says to me “why are you pushing me away, you need me more now than you ever have”…”you need me”….”you need me”.

    Like HELL I do! I don’t need jack from you except to get the hell out of my face. I certainly don’t need what you’re offering lately.

    “Fine, I’ll go to my sister’s for the night”

    Bye.

    Translate: I am not weak, I can do this on my own. I need no one.

  3. Barb February 10, 2007 at 2:08 pm #

    Ah yes… I hear ya Sister. And I hate feeling weak. The boyfriend would do anything for me, but I hate it. And add to that the fact that I can’t see and people feel the need to help me out more than usual. They’re just trying to be nice, but I hate showing weakness, and I hate being classified as disabled. Fuck!

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